Untitled-

My brother came home 2 weekends ago. It felt like its been ages since I last saw him. The car was full of laughter as usual, while Wande Coal's " Kiss your hand"  blasting and the three of us were shouting/singing along to it, almost sounding like a kid bop commerical lmao. Those moments are some of the best moments I have with my siblings, and  my dad  would say " enjoy the years you have with your siblings because a few years from now you'll only be getting a phone call or a visit once or twice a year". I kinda tear up at the thought now that I think about it; My brother could be in California or some warm state since he hates the cold, I could be in Belize or Nigeria or Paris or somewhere like that and my sister in New York. Knowing my brother, he would probably only call once or twice, most likely because he needs something or because hes injured him self and doesn't know what to put on the cut...I don't think he does this on purpose but hes painfuly quiet. You can ask him five questions and his response will be: uhuh, yea, no, ok. But once he starts with his pidgin? you can't get him to shut up. He's always adding 'oh' to the end of his sentences or 'ehen, you see it"? or starting his sentences with 'omo, or oga'. He's taught almost everyone on his team how to greet my dad in pidgin ( or anyone for that matter) and they all say " oga, how far" in which my father replies 'you are a mumu'...smh...his pidgin is improving though lol...his favorite Nigerian name to say ( for reasons unbeknownst to the rest of us) is tolulope...I guess he watches too many t-boy videos ( the don't jealous me dude)

My aunt took a nasty fall yesterday. She was going down stairs trying to turn off the dryer, and fell. Her clavicle popped out of its socket, and the EMTs/police/ firefighters came because she couldnt move. I felt bad, mostly because I or my sister should have been there to help her do whatever she needed to do, but we were at a car auction. She can never sit still. Shes either washing dishes or cooking or folding clothes and what not.




I've sent in all my applications for my schools except one, I'm hoping against hope, I get in and away from here.




My hair's been falling out like crazy. Its makes me depressed, but I can't cry. I'm all cried out. I'm used to the whole process: Fall out, grow back, fall out,grow back..its not like anyone actually cares especially not my family members except my mom & aunt, because afterall its just hair.The warm weather is back...and I'm not  looking foreward to the weather when it hits 80+....




America., has once again succeeded in making a Christian holiday, commericalized ( bunnies, eggs etc) kids didn't have school on Friday ( Good friday) because of a holiday most of them don't know the meaning of or even celebrate. Do they  assume everyone is a catholic/christian though? Why don't kids have no school on the hindu holidays? 


Happy Easter everyone.

an Uneventful Sunday

ahhh Sunday, a day to rest and worship....

Today wasnt so special, nothing really happened, just went to church and relaxed mostly. I'm a commuter so my "college life" is basically non existant and my aunt is constantly on our ( my sister,cousin and me) backs whenever we do go out...pretty annoying which makes me want to fill out some college apps sharp sharp n gerrout of here...

I been thinking about the guy I used to go out with ( I dont use 'ex' too often, idk why) because I emailed him asking him to bring my pictures back that I left at his place. I didnt say 'hi' or 'how are you? I wasnt in the mood for all that kind talk, I just want my pics o. So he ( lets call him Olu). So Olu writes back and says " Hey its been along time, I would have called you but my phone doesnt work right now. I missed your 'coolness'. I will send you your pics. ttyl'. I'm sitting there like wtf, whos really trying to conversate here with you, bring me my pics jare! I replied two days later with a simple "Thanks". Our break up was sort of messy.

*Rewind to Week of Sept.14-Oct.1*

During that week ( Sept 14) Idk something came over me, and I was always too busy or too tired to really talk to him but we managed to talk on fb and just txt. I noticed he was acting funny and wouldnt really talk as much as before. He said he had a 'cold'. I'm just like ok o, whatever you say.My friend died around the 13th...and I was sort of out of it and didnt really talk much to him. So the next couple of days we were talking and he goes...you left me for a whole week without calling etc and I've been thinking..he was beating around the bush and before I know it he said he 'had to go' after that whenever we were on the phone he would make an excuse to get off the phone. I was really trying to make it work, you know but at the same time I knew something wasnt right and I knew what he was going to tell me.So a couple days later I called him and told him to say whatever he had to say and stop beating around the bush he says ok " I dont think I can continue in a relationship with someone like you, you have a long way to go".I wasnt surprised. I asked him to just return the things I left at his place and I would do the same I hung up but I was FURIOUS. We texted back and forth and my fingers nearly burned a hole through my phone. He said we could still be friends and I said I never wanted to speak or see him again. I broke down and at this point I was feeling like my whole world was crashing... My aunt told me to take heart and be happy I didnt sleep with him..I was still upset.for about a day or so....then we started talking/txting like 'friends' he called me 'Onose' instead of 'baby' which rubbed me the wrong way and I dont know why....


Fast forward to the end of Sept. I was going for my interview at Nigeria House ( the most stupid human beings work at that place. I swear. God forgive me but they all have their heads in their azz ) and I asked him if I could stay there, I didnt have money for a hotel or whatever and I wasnt staying in Ny at the time. Needless to say it was a BIG MISTAKE O!! ha, see me see trouble ke, the guy was rude and acted like he didnt want me there. Man he was playin GAMES. Like he would be hiding ( shady as hell I tell u) to talk to some girl, like I didnt know. Im not stupid ( we had talked a week or so before about hopefully getting back together so I was clueless as to why he was talking to someone else) and after he was done with his little convo he would step to me like everything was all good. stupid mumu. I ignored him and kept doing whatever....later that night at his place he was critisizing everything I wore....from my shorts ( that I wanted to sleep in) to my shoes ( for the naija indy. party...was anyone @Blvd? d club was dull ) which he said looked like hooker shoes...at that time I was PISSED.  I decided to leave him alone and browse the net.

Next day I went to the interview.
yeye man: How are we suppose to know dat yua parents are Nigerians ehn?
Whia is yua parental consent?

Me: I'm over 16, and my birth cert. states where my parents were born

ym: It doesnt matter, and you were even suppose to pay $ 112 dollas not $ 75, now go across d street and get yua refund

me: But it didnt specify that on the website


*This is when he gets hannoyed ( lol)*
ym:Look this is what I'm tellin you! forgret about what dey said on the website. This is what I'm telling you.( ha!!! see me see wahala wetin i do this man nau?)
Anyway have a nice day, tank jyou ( maybe he was benin or yoruba idk for him )for coming today.



I bounced ourra that place mehnnn.... didnt get my refund and basically wasted my time.

Back to Olu. I got back to his place and he said he was going to the gym. I bacially stayed on his computer all day and napped. Later at night I started typing my paper that was due the next day and he was complaining about that too ( ughh!) I finally finished and before that I told him we needed to talk. He was already asleep and when I got to bed he says " So what do you need to talk about"? I said nevermind he shrugged and turned over , went to sleep. I then started talking about how hes been making me feel bad , like he didnt want me there. He denied everything. And I turned over and stopped talking. He turned over and told me to come close to him, his face was getting closer to mine. We kissed and fooled around and he even asked me " you wanna have sex"? I said no and he said we should stop what we were doing. We went to bed , but that question was quite strange . since he said we were friends and knows I was going to say no.

The day of the Indy parade:

I woke up to his voice, but he was on the phone ( yea at 8am) obviously it was with a girl and its like he made sure I was around to hear him, this stupid boy really wanted to hurt me...So i ignored him and went about my business and took my shower etc. When i went to brush my teeth he started hiding in the kitchen talking to this girl, I pretended like I didnt see him and kept it moving. We got dressed and picked up his friends ( 2 of them) and took the train to the parade. He was using all kinds of dumb slangs and swears to make himself sound cool in front of his friends....he looked like a fool because they werent even paying him attention. On the train he was doin the same shit. He was hiding to talk to this girl and basically IGNORED me. I packed my shit and moved to another seat he later comes and asks me if I was ok. I told him I was on the phone and . As soon as the train stopped,I hopped off and went my own way...I wanted to just give him one to the jaw.......After that episode, now I knw his true colors...and I'm glad that I didnt sleep with him ( maybe thats what got him fustrated) what do u think?

to be continued ( ive written too much sef)

have a wonderful sunday!

♥ TD