A Valentine's Day filled with regret.

73 % of the people who buy flowers/candy on Valentines day are men.
1 billion people will receive cards today &  

of those 1 billion teachers get the most, followed by children,mothers and wives.

first off: A big THANK YOU, to everyone who comments on my blog. I truly appreciate all the funny,insightful & truthful comments!!For those wondering about Azumi, yes he's a real person. I'm not in a relationship with him. I am being extremely cautious...still trying to figure out who he is. I know its not wise to let imagination and fantasy get the best of you but I thought it would be 'interesting' to write about him.

Its Valentine's day and to me its another Sunday. I'm here in my brothers dorm room watching that show 'cheaters' lmao its like a marathon or something. My brother's gf couldnt make it, and my brother left for PA  this morning for his game on Monday. I didn't get home till 3am this morning, we were with my brothers two goofy friends who kept us entertained throughout the night and morning. They took us to a bar/grille ( I dont drink but I wasnt trying to stay in my brothers dorm all night) called " Thirsty dog" lmao...maka gini?  I kuku got up and left, ah ah the place com fullll with oyinbo grls den like 10-15 black guys here and there, mostly athletes. Then the way everyone was dancing was on completely different level..like they were having convulsions or seizures...

I don't mean to be negative on the day of  love,but I got to thinking about some of the things I regret doing and let happen. I beat myself up about it just simply thinking about it. I don't know if it was because of  my brothers room mates all starting their Valentine's day early, with their 'girlfriends' or lady-friends and closing their doors & leaving the rest of us to our tainted imaginations. It just made me think that I never want to be 'that girl' going to a guy's place and shutting the door and being used  temporarily to feed some guys lust. It took me back to Leksai ( Olu), I mean I would go to his place, knowing in the back of my mind that it was wrong and knowing in the back of my mind that he wouldn't listen to me if I told him not to 'touch me' lest we went further than intended. Although we didn't have sex,  we were close to it.  I felt like a toy and after  the whole "relationship" I felt stupid. This what he told me the last time we talked when he said he had a confession to make: " when I was with her, I was thinking of you"...who says that? How can you have been thinking of me when you are blind with lust and your feeding your flesh? And after his 'confession' he said we were NOT together, but I can clearly remember him saying that we were way before this 'confession'.I don't know I just don't understand the way some guys are. The thing that gets me that most is he acts like nothing happened. He lies a lot and acts like hes not in the wrong. He can never admit to something being wrong whether it was him or his friends or something in general. He loved manipulating my feelings. I can remember one day where he was one the phone with a girl-friend. He said something like "Yea you have a big ass". He was obviously trying to get a reaction out of me, because when I got mad about it ( and I'm not a jealous person at all but for him to say something like that was wrong) he asked me "Why are you mad, was it because of what I said? " instead of initially saying sorry he says " thats the way I talk with my friends, even if they are girls". I said " So would you like it if I said ' oh you have such nice abs/biceps" to a male friend? He said no, or something to that effect.

I hate repeating things on here, but I felt I had to. It was on my mind and I felt I should write it down. Applications for the colleges I'm applying are fast approaching.I've been feeling down way before this  and the stress of school work/applications doesn't help. I don't like feeling like this.

Happy Valentine's Day.

Naija state of mind/transfering/crazy day at court

So its official, I'm going to Nigeria ( Lagos and Benin), but not for christmas. I am excited! Ive never been to Nigeria but ive heard its fun -- I'm happy to be leaving the states for a while ( credit card ppl wan kill me) I'm not sure how hot or warm its going to be so I need some tips on what to pack ( sneakers? sandals, light cardigans? ) and also what cosmetics to bring? Is power ok? Should I bring acne face/body washes so I dont get pimples from the hot weather? idk i just dont want to look busted with pimples all over ( im meeting some family members for the first time o!) and what about hair styles? will a lace front in a longer style be too much? What are some of the popular beaches/malls/stores/movie theaters/restaurants/markets? I have a fair amount of young cousins ( my age) but im sort of shy to ask them questions lmao i dont why but i am, and they are all coming here anyway so i might not even be with them most of the time...I know im askin lots of questions but I'm curious o!

HAPPY14TH BIRTHDAY TO MY CUZZO!! ( just had to put that in there haha)

-on another note, Im trying to transfer for fall '10. I have a couple of schools in mind, some in Philly, one in LA...but I want to know about good colleges for international law...any suggestions?


So what I really wanted to post is what happened yesterday at court. My parents are divorced(about time). John sr ( thats what I call him) was always cheating/ beating on my mother so finally in 07 she threw his ass out....his shit was sitting on the porch, hangers and all lmao. So john sr is "dating" i mean using * cough* cough* my moms ex- best friend( can u imagine) and this lady is a straight up ASHEWO,seriously she sleeps with anything that has a heart beat. shes accusing my mother of making threats and saying she was going to kill her baby ( na wa o which 46 yr old dey born pikin? and for whia ) so we went to court yesterday...and john sr went with his "lady" to support her and LMAO this "lady" looked like ass twice warmed over. She had a lop sided ass wig with a penis shaped hump on top,lookin like a damn cone head . She had on some cheap ass flea market shoes and bag to match. Her and John sr were even matching o! Brown blazers, jeans and all. She looked HIT, no lie. Anyway the case was dismissed so my mother won. She didnt do anything so wor d hell she had to win and all her friends and our family members came out to support her. After we left court we had to get our tickets stamped for parking so we went into the store. John sr comes in and starts conversing with me and my uncle like everything was all gravy ( john sr is a mad man sha) and I started yelling at him telling him how hes chosing that ashewo over his kids, my uncle was also telling him the same thing. This "lady" starts saying oh dont mind them. She started getting closer to me so I started yelling at her I wanted to pull that rats nest she called a wig off her head. My uncle and aunts came to hold me down, and an undercover cop showed up and called the police....everything got blown up as usual...hey we're in america right? Americans like to blow up every little effin thing and at that moment I was wishing I was anywhere but here so i can js use hand tey sound am...that stupid man( john sr)...he gave that STUPID ASHEWO'S daughter ( who is all the way at Howard) my number to start cussin me out..then he called me...to tell me WHAT? god punish their heads.


NOTE:
if anyone goes to Howard beware of a girl who has a monkey-like appearance and a weave that looks more like a poodle on her head.She dresses like tellos/rainbows exploded in her closet,.Her face has been known to cause dizziness,shortness of breath and fainting.Consider yourself warned !

Song I'm lovin: "fireflies" by owl city

im off this



td

an Uneventful Sunday

ahhh Sunday, a day to rest and worship....

Today wasnt so special, nothing really happened, just went to church and relaxed mostly. I'm a commuter so my "college life" is basically non existant and my aunt is constantly on our ( my sister,cousin and me) backs whenever we do go out...pretty annoying which makes me want to fill out some college apps sharp sharp n gerrout of here...

I been thinking about the guy I used to go out with ( I dont use 'ex' too often, idk why) because I emailed him asking him to bring my pictures back that I left at his place. I didnt say 'hi' or 'how are you? I wasnt in the mood for all that kind talk, I just want my pics o. So he ( lets call him Olu). So Olu writes back and says " Hey its been along time, I would have called you but my phone doesnt work right now. I missed your 'coolness'. I will send you your pics. ttyl'. I'm sitting there like wtf, whos really trying to conversate here with you, bring me my pics jare! I replied two days later with a simple "Thanks". Our break up was sort of messy.

*Rewind to Week of Sept.14-Oct.1*

During that week ( Sept 14) Idk something came over me, and I was always too busy or too tired to really talk to him but we managed to talk on fb and just txt. I noticed he was acting funny and wouldnt really talk as much as before. He said he had a 'cold'. I'm just like ok o, whatever you say.My friend died around the 13th...and I was sort of out of it and didnt really talk much to him. So the next couple of days we were talking and he goes...you left me for a whole week without calling etc and I've been thinking..he was beating around the bush and before I know it he said he 'had to go' after that whenever we were on the phone he would make an excuse to get off the phone. I was really trying to make it work, you know but at the same time I knew something wasnt right and I knew what he was going to tell me.So a couple days later I called him and told him to say whatever he had to say and stop beating around the bush he says ok " I dont think I can continue in a relationship with someone like you, you have a long way to go".I wasnt surprised. I asked him to just return the things I left at his place and I would do the same I hung up but I was FURIOUS. We texted back and forth and my fingers nearly burned a hole through my phone. He said we could still be friends and I said I never wanted to speak or see him again. I broke down and at this point I was feeling like my whole world was crashing... My aunt told me to take heart and be happy I didnt sleep with him..I was still upset.for about a day or so....then we started talking/txting like 'friends' he called me 'Onose' instead of 'baby' which rubbed me the wrong way and I dont know why....


Fast forward to the end of Sept. I was going for my interview at Nigeria House ( the most stupid human beings work at that place. I swear. God forgive me but they all have their heads in their azz ) and I asked him if I could stay there, I didnt have money for a hotel or whatever and I wasnt staying in Ny at the time. Needless to say it was a BIG MISTAKE O!! ha, see me see trouble ke, the guy was rude and acted like he didnt want me there. Man he was playin GAMES. Like he would be hiding ( shady as hell I tell u) to talk to some girl, like I didnt know. Im not stupid ( we had talked a week or so before about hopefully getting back together so I was clueless as to why he was talking to someone else) and after he was done with his little convo he would step to me like everything was all good. stupid mumu. I ignored him and kept doing whatever....later that night at his place he was critisizing everything I wore....from my shorts ( that I wanted to sleep in) to my shoes ( for the naija indy. party...was anyone @Blvd? d club was dull ) which he said looked like hooker shoes...at that time I was PISSED.  I decided to leave him alone and browse the net.

Next day I went to the interview.
yeye man: How are we suppose to know dat yua parents are Nigerians ehn?
Whia is yua parental consent?

Me: I'm over 16, and my birth cert. states where my parents were born

ym: It doesnt matter, and you were even suppose to pay $ 112 dollas not $ 75, now go across d street and get yua refund

me: But it didnt specify that on the website


*This is when he gets hannoyed ( lol)*
ym:Look this is what I'm tellin you! forgret about what dey said on the website. This is what I'm telling you.( ha!!! see me see wahala wetin i do this man nau?)
Anyway have a nice day, tank jyou ( maybe he was benin or yoruba idk for him )for coming today.



I bounced ourra that place mehnnn.... didnt get my refund and basically wasted my time.

Back to Olu. I got back to his place and he said he was going to the gym. I bacially stayed on his computer all day and napped. Later at night I started typing my paper that was due the next day and he was complaining about that too ( ughh!) I finally finished and before that I told him we needed to talk. He was already asleep and when I got to bed he says " So what do you need to talk about"? I said nevermind he shrugged and turned over , went to sleep. I then started talking about how hes been making me feel bad , like he didnt want me there. He denied everything. And I turned over and stopped talking. He turned over and told me to come close to him, his face was getting closer to mine. We kissed and fooled around and he even asked me " you wanna have sex"? I said no and he said we should stop what we were doing. We went to bed , but that question was quite strange . since he said we were friends and knows I was going to say no.

The day of the Indy parade:

I woke up to his voice, but he was on the phone ( yea at 8am) obviously it was with a girl and its like he made sure I was around to hear him, this stupid boy really wanted to hurt me...So i ignored him and went about my business and took my shower etc. When i went to brush my teeth he started hiding in the kitchen talking to this girl, I pretended like I didnt see him and kept it moving. We got dressed and picked up his friends ( 2 of them) and took the train to the parade. He was using all kinds of dumb slangs and swears to make himself sound cool in front of his friends....he looked like a fool because they werent even paying him attention. On the train he was doin the same shit. He was hiding to talk to this girl and basically IGNORED me. I packed my shit and moved to another seat he later comes and asks me if I was ok. I told him I was on the phone and . As soon as the train stopped,I hopped off and went my own way...I wanted to just give him one to the jaw.......After that episode, now I knw his true colors...and I'm glad that I didnt sleep with him ( maybe thats what got him fustrated) what do u think?

to be continued ( ive written too much sef)

have a wonderful sunday!

♥ TD

So I finally decided to start my own blog!

I started this blog mainly to just share my opinons and my likes and dis likes about everything from fashion to politics and everything in bewteen but I'm also started this blog to share my life and all the experiences that come with it...I'm Nigerian so there will be some interesting stories to tell :-)


Some things on my mind right now :

1. My much anticipated trip to Nigeria, you could say its my first trip ever...because the last time I was there was when I was 1 :-(

2. Transfering to another college ..can't wait ...maybe I will finally be living the "college life" lmao.

3. Working on a non-profit organization and just trying to help Nigeria improve