Just some thoughts

hmmm I dont really know what to post about.... No bad news, but no good news really

Exams are underway( congrats to anyone who just finished the semester, one more to go!)...just trying to plan my winter and spring break, and once again, I've changed everything around!! ughhh soo fustrating!! so now I'm going to London for winter break and Naija in the summer and I'll stay for a month or so ( summer school :-/ ) the rest of my summer will consist of classes and work...anyone know what to pack to naija if im going around june-ish? I was talking to a family friend of mine and she told me that when I go to naija, I will appreciate the US more because of the transportation and I will appreciate naija more because of the culture...i didnt really know what to make of that statement so i didnt say anything...we were also discussing how naija kids born here never really get the opportunity to go to Nigeria....anyway

for spring break I might just go to somewhere cold or I might just go do some work for HFH...dunno yet...everything is going pretty good for the most part, except me feeling like moving out of the country...lol...I always feel like that though so what else is new?!

Not really feeling the whole xmas spirit, I really wish I was spending xmas with a whole bunch of my family members ( most are all in Naija or UK,me sef ive lost track) Christmas in Naija would be out of this world; I can picture it now; food cookin, 1st cousins, distant cousins,aunties,uncles...the television on, everyone talking/discussing, and at the end of the night everyone would be all over the place, some sleeping on the couch, the floor or which ever spot they can find!! But now it seems like no one cares about stuff like that...they are off with their families doing their own thing... now I know what ppl mean when they say to enjoy the little time you have with family until you "grow up" (move out,get married and all that)hmm such is life...

I'm going to a naija xmas parry today ...hmm im sure all the parents will be saying something like this to my mother " i have a son oh" or " please oh, i want my son to stay connected to our culture, i will introduce him to ya daughtah"... its really funny sha... i get a kick out of it everytime...i dont blame them...



For any of you avid book readers,Authentic Beauty:The shaping of a set-apart young woman by Leslie Rudy is a good read...

I just found out that a boy I went to school with ( my freshman yr of college) just died, the happiest, funniest,cutest Bahamian guy you could ever meet. But he was battling his own demons...why are ppl like that the most miserable?


wishin u a wonderful weekend..& study hard for finals!

Onose

More realizations and I truly need a resolution!

update* Olu and I talk sometimes ( he always has something sexual to say, maybe hes trying to convince me to sleep with him which will never happen, and when he starts his sex talk he gets disconnected) and when we do, he tries to act like our whole 'break up' was my fault when hes the one that was acting some how/strange n stupid, he didnt even believe that my friend passed away when I was explaining to him why I havent called him ( so he says) , hes so selfish, always putting what he wants first, and hes never patient. He says hes not used to being patient for what he wants, I told him sorry that the other girls you've dated never told you 'no' or never expected you to be patient. Mehnnnn i no fit stand a guy wey dey act like small pikin, that gets on my NERVES. Well recently I havent talked to him. I'm just sick of his drama, his wahala is just too mush...and in his head he still thought we were getting back together, he even expected me to come to his place for Thanksgiving, ha family no dey again? Hes crazy to think after all that happened I would hop on a greyhound bus to go see him on Thanksgiving ( of all days) and then tell my mother that im going whia? so that she can roast me shey? I think not.I played along with him n whatnot but I'm done, I'm not into guys like him anymore...I thought he was different--but hes in the same category of guys I run from and will continue to run from!


What is it with some people mehnnn?

They say they are Christians or whatever yet they still feel its ok to have premarital sex ( im not judging, but this what Ive observed i mean we all sin, but this one is serious o), why cant people see a good thing for what it is and appreciate it? Why do people have to defile/corrupt things then complain that it is spoiled? Olu claims that his parents taught him about Christianity, and he says hes a Christian, YET he says before he gets married he has to try some 'stuff' with his wife -to -be,umm how does that work? what the * fill in the blank* is that? (see im trying to kick my swearing habit :) Then he says if I lost my vcard at 16, he would have thought I was a slut YET he lost his at 16 (with an older girl!) I can do better than him, I dont see how his view of sex will benefit him in the future, but as long as I'm not in that picture than I'm more than okay, I'm GOOD.


On a much light note, the semester is nearly over, and I decided to do volunteer work ( for xmas/winter break) in Nigeria and do work for Habitat for Humanity for spring break. I hope everything works its self out ( still need to get a visa, yea kinda late but hey..)

What I'm looking forward to ( no particular order):

1. My family friend's graduation
2. A convention in Dallas
3 Indiana in the summer time
4. Fall '10 in philly/la/or Miami
5. A full head of curly hair
6.Xmas '10
7. Four 'white' weddings to attend (all for relatives too!)
8.Buying a car
9. A Nigeria, that future generations will be proud of
10. Cutting people off and out of my life, you ppl should try it, quite liberating really...especially when those people bring you down instead of lifting you up...



New Year resolution:

Live to my highest potential, be the young woman God has called me to be.


...I was at the bookstore today and I saw a magazine ( people) and it was like a yearbook or something on the years 2000-2009. It really hit me --we are at the end of a decade.

kinda scary...it has me feeling like I did when I was 9 back in 1999 ...